Ever feel like your plans are a mistake?

Sometimes I feel like somehow in spite of the best of intentions, I have made precisely the inappropriate decisions. Over the years I have learned to recognize this as a pattern of self-deprecation. To grow entails risk and may bring discomfort. The mistake would be to turn back from my plan before it is realized.

I have found that sometimes precisely what is needed is to remain in my own personal discomfort and not to run away from it. I have found that if I can simply dwell in the discomfort and witness my thoughts and emotions, it is only a matter of time before the path to a new way of being is lit.

I found myself in New York, with less than a week before my trip to Egypt, and nowhere near enough funds for the trip. The plans I had made previously had fallen through. I was already networking, but these things don't always move forward as fast as I might like. I had a pile of web work to do for some of my regular clients, but sitting at a computer in a stressed state doesn't help matters.

I knew intellectually this was just a trick of the mind, but I still had a hard time shifting. So I started sharing how I felt with the people I was with. This proved to be my saving grace. I was able to break out of my cyclical thinking and get support. I feel better now. What I am taking away from the events of the day is:

• Witness my thoughts and emotions
• Communicate how I feel
• Remember to love myself
• Remember that sometimes it is better to quit acting like I have it all together

I know this stuff. I teach this stuff. But...sometimes the lesson is to put what I teach into practice. The funny thing is, that in moving through to the new space, people started showing up and scheduling with me, and the financial solutions became clear.

Namaste